i am not myself these days by josh kilmer purcell

I love that this story is about two people on the margins of society, two quote unquote freaks, two addicts, two pathetic fuckups who see themselves in each other and fall in love almost instantly. Who’s the good guy? Who’s the bad guy? Aren’t they both bad? If they didn’t get what they deserved by the first commercial, it’d be on to the breast cancer movie.” But that's not really true. People would flip right by the channel, either unbelieving or uncaring. It’s not the kind of thing people would care about. The story is summed up pretty well by the author near the end: “The truth is, there’s no movie of the week about a drunk drag queen and a crackhead hooker in love. If it wasn’t so darn funny, I would have cried. Your story was beautiful, honest, and hilarious. “You know that if you want to have an operation that’s something you can talk about with your dad and me.” I loved your crazy and dysfunctional relationship with Jack in a city that has no mercy, yet is a haven for those who are different, and I loved your friendship with Laura and your relationship with your supportive mom who didn’t know the difference between transsexuals and drag queens. You also reminded me of a close friend who appeared to be the happiest person in the world to everyone else, but drowned his pain in vodka. Your work hours and lack of sleep exhausted me, reminding me of my own hectic days working full-time, part-time, taking classes, and still finding time to party. You reminded me of my little brother, who got a kick out of trying on my mom’s dresses and heels. I loved reading about your transformation to Aqua. Who’s the good guy? Who’s the bad guy? Aren’t they both bad? If they didn’t get what they deserved by the first commercial, it’d be on to the breast cancer movie.” “The truth is, there’s no movie of the week about a drunk drag queen and a crackhead hooker in love. The two guys enjoy a routine life of reading the paper together and ordering lunch from the deli, while listening to Jack’s beeper go off and occasionally running into his unusual clients. His boyfriend, Jack, is a very well-paid escort known as “Aidan” to his clients, and lives in a posh apartment building guarded by doormen. At night, he lovingly and painstakingly transforms himself into Aqua, a 7-foot blonde beauty who carries goldfish around in her plastic boobs. By day, Josh works for an advertising agency. Still, I’m glad I found this little gem about two misfits in love.

I’m not much of a TV person and have never seen The Fabulous Beekman Boys or heard of Josh Kilmer-Purcell, retired drag queen.

I am not myself these days by josh kilmer purcell